I Hate Myself
(Rick Springfield/Matt Bissonette)
My so-called friends all quit without a kiss goodbye
According to US
II thought it was funny what Rick said about
this song at our recent live show. He said he'd written a song a lot like this
many years ago...meaning Jessie's Girl...and this was the new version of that
song. I love this song and that usual Rick tongue-in-cheek vibe of it. This
would be in my top "half" of favorites from this CD. For me it has the feel of a
classic RS self-deprecating song with an underlying humor. It's one of the
songwriting traits that appeals to me the most about Rick. One thing no one can
ever say about him is that he's afraid to admit he has faults and makes a lot of
mistakes. It's a theme within his music.
This song represents, in my mind, The Good -
The Bad - and The Ugly. Here's why:
He thrilled many fans when he opened up the opportunity to record yourself singing 'I Hate Myself' and submit it for a special rendition of the song. It also puts a celebrity in a human light when they can admit a human fault or weakness.
I didn't mind the song, melodically speaking, the first time I hear the final cut. That was the only time I liked it. I do not care for the melody. Some of the lyrics are hints of his clever writing skills, but in my opinion it is a message of wrong doing that he confesses over and over, as if it makes everything right and absolves him of sinful actions and thoughts. It is like, with any song, it was founded based on a thought...but all my ears hear are that same thought being said over and over versus a transition into the type of genius song that I am accustomed to, coming from him.
When he was first hinting at this song and mentioned that despite hearing 'I Hate Myself', that it was a 'positive song', I looked forward to hearing the song and the rational behind it being sold as a positive song. WHAT??? Imagine my disappointment to see no positive anything in this song (aside from the previously mentioned participation opportunity for willing fans). I have a hard enough time stopping my own self from telling myself that I hate myself. Never would I think to ask others to sing it and embrace it. I know...it was not a serious thing...but it almost strikes me as a puppet master move- 'Watch this...I'm going to make them think these words are positive and get the puppets to sing it and believe it. haha I am a genius'. What's that? In his own words...he's a 'one-man wrecking crew'. Nicely played, Springfield.
When it comes to this particular song, I left the puppet show early.
The first time I heard this song was when he debuted it in Milwaukee before the CD was released. It was catchy enough, but I certainly didn't walk away thinking "OMG, this song is so great". Someone had posted the video to Youtube, so we played it over and over and wrote down the words (and brought them with us to the performance he did for the fans that was also broadcast), so we knew the song pretty well after that. Then as time went by, I came to realize how much I use that phrase. Apparently I say that to myself all the time. Especially when I get on the scale. Even to the point where I like to sing "I hate myself, cause I want food" Its funny how after you hear a phrase in a song, that you don't think you are all that familiar with, that you realize you hear it/use it more than you think (kind of like It's Always Something)
Also, during some past explosions of some friendships, I was very in tune with the phrase "so called friends" because I used that a lot too. So I slowly realized how much I identified with a lot of the feeling in this song, even though maybe for different reasons.
Also, I've always thought this song was written about the reaction he had after his biography came out. Especially since I found a certain chapter a little "creepy" myself and that is the exact word I used to describe it.
Once again, I think the lyrics are very poetic. He definitely has a way with words, can make some really great rhymes while still be able to tell a story. "Burn me down, I'm black and blue" - I take that to mean he's pretty beat up, by other people, but mostly by himself. I totally get the feeling of knowing you should resist, shouldn't spend the money, shouldn't like something that is bad for you, but not being able to resist, even though you keep living the bad consequences over and over.
I do think it is odd that this is the song/line that the fans got to participate in. And yea, that whole "this is a positive song" thing. He said the same exact thing about Jesus Saves, and neither are positive at all. I take that to be sarcasm. - rlh